Sunday, August 1, 2010

:)CLAY

NEW DEFINITION OF MY <3 = CLAYDOHBOONMYBABYLUV

BESTBOYFRIEND CHECKLIST (sub babybutt)

ClAy BoOn
Adorable: yes
Funny: sometimes too much
Hair: retarded but love it
Food: <3
Caring: 100%
Kiss Scale: 9/10
Creativity: depends in the area. but mostly good scores
Pet Butterflies: B-E-A-UTIFUL
Sensitivity: AWWWWW!!!! :) yes
LOVE?! : I HOPE SO!!!!

XOXOXOXO

Thursday, July 15, 2010

cali-weather is weird short

RAIN + SUN + HEAT + THUNDER + LIGHTNING + PANICKED PEOPLE + LOUD SOUNDS = CALIFORNIA!
What a state!!!!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

alsdfjhao;pwife

ENVY ENVY ENVY ENVY ENVY! RAWR.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

I Love How Much You Don't Care


I love how you're never the first one to call me,
I love how you're never the first to txt me,
I love how if i don't contact you, you don't contact me,
I love how you only do something sweet when it's required to,
I love how you never ask me to hang out when you know I'm free,
I love how you think I don't know anybody but you,
I love how you think that you're friends can't be my friends,
I love how you treat me like I'm you're property,
I love how I'm always the one that tries to look for you,
I love how when i come up to you, you either don't recognize me or you give me a small hug and walk away to your friends,
I love how you never think to check up on me,
I love how you show you don't think about me,
I love how you make me feel like I'm paranoid,
I love how you say that I get angry for stupid reasons and that you care,
I love how you say "i would change for you and try to pay for attention to you" but never give the effort,
I love how you care about dance more than me,
I love how I'm not even at the top of the most important things to you,
I love how you forget plans you have with me,
I love how you don't make me feel better when I'm upset anymore,
I love how you don't know me as much as you did before,
I love how you treat me less then a friend or a gf but make it seem like you pay more attention to me then others,
I love how we don't talk when we webcam,
I love how sometimes we can't have a conversation about anything,
I love how you're always too busy with other people or playing guitar or singing then to talk to me,
I love how when you lose your phone you don't think to let me know,
I love how you can't read my mind anymore,
I love how when i need you, you're never there,
I love how you put up such a good act that my friends all side with you,
I love how you make it impossible to make things seem like your fault because of the way you seem,
I love how you make me feel insignificant,
I love how you make me feel useless,
I love how you make me feel undeserving,
I love how you don't reply to me,
I love how you care about dancing more than me,
I love how you make it seem like i won't have a future,
I love how everything you say to me makes me feel worse,
I LOVE HOW YOU DON'T CARE...

but..... I LOVE HOW YOU PRETEND YOU DO...

Saturday, May 15, 2010

may 14

sooo! yesterday was dance concert. really stressful, fun, and tiring. Everyone loved OUR duet (clay and me)! yay! success!!!!!
later, we went to red robin to celebrate! woohoo!
basically yesterday was great :)
i got alone time with my boonboon and a nice dance concert.

Love Detriment or Bliss Love?

WITH SPECIAL THANKS TO CLAY FOR HELPING ME WRITE THIS PERSUASIVE ESSAY! <3 (very contradicting i know)

Love has always been viewed in two ways. Either people believe it is a wondrous joining of souls or they think of it as an evil spirit that will tear them apart. The feelings you get from loving someone or being loved can be exhilarating. Even though many people cherish love and fall deeply into the merriment of attachment, they fail to see the emotional dangers and unnecessary disruptions that may occur. Love is an illusion that combines desire and need.
            Many that believe they are in love would say that they are happy and that love is a necessity for a person to achieve their so called, “full potential”. In “A Midsummer’s Night Dream”, Lysander and Hermia believed that they need love and without each other there is no point of life. They run away together to reach their desire for a happy ending. To them, happiness will only come if they are together forever. People search for passion because they want to be cared for and they want to find someone who will be able to lift their spirits when they are down. The reasons for love are to find thrills, passion, a mutual affection, and to feel they are able to be one with another being. People who fall in love value it and are completely lost in the blinding excitement.
            Love can be distracting. When you are in love you become unaware of many aspects of your life. Take school for instance, your grades may begin to decline because you cannot focus on studying when you are too busy thinking about your lover. Most people that fall in love and grow distant from their companion realize that they have lost friends, along with the many memories that could have been shared with other people because they concentrated too much on their relationship. Even if you are a person that has the potential and intelligence to succeed throughout life, that may all change because of the time and money you might of lost being sidetracked in a love affair. It is hard to prioritize when love has consumed your emotions and ability to make rational decisions. This causes you to ignore certain necessities no matter how important it is to your health or future.
            Love may also bring regret. People are constantly changing their minds about the relationship choices they make. People who get married often regret it because marriage is a common time where passion dies. Also they may realize that they don’t truly love the person. In the article from national geographic, “A Thing for Love”, Lauren Slater finds that after her marriage, she felt disappointment. The passion and the aspiration for each other faded into what is only a partnership. People make irrational decisions when they think they are in love, and once it’s too late, they understand that love has blinded them from having better judgment.
            The biggest problem with falling under the treacherous love spell is that most people eventually have to experience the misfortune of heartbreak. Many people feel that they have just been played or used when they leave a relationship. In Midsummer’s Night Dream, Lysander and Hermia planned to run away from Athenian law to be together. In that same night when they were leaving their homes, Lysander fell in love with Helena. He yells to Hermia about hating her and how she should leave him alone. This left Hermia feeling thrown aside and stepped on. Heartbreak can mess with your everyday mood. For example, your views on life and people are darkened and the vibe and attitude you have towards others are also gloomy. The emotional pain and scarring of a break up may weaken your self esteem and cause thoughts of suicide. Why go through the emotional suffering of losing a love?
            The necessity of life does not need to include love or passion. Many people find themselves feeling foolish and hurt from marveling at and pouring their heart out for someone. Even though many people cherish love and fall deeply into the merriment of attachment, they fail to see the emotional dangers and unnecessary disruptions that may occur. With love bringing worries like doubts, jealousy, and longing, the distress is not worth it. People may not require love or allurement to be happy. In fact, numerous people might be better off not having to deal with the emotional stress that is brought upon by love and affection for another being.